Opening the Door to Self Love | Becoming Me
My life has led me down a path of not only learning to love myself but actually finding myself. The last two years have been some of my best and the worst. Have you ever felt that? That feeling of growth that makes you feel like you finally figured something out about yourself, but then turns to tears of the hard reality that it was there all along. The grieving process of feeling like you're losing someone, but really you were never meant to be that person. It's deep maybe dark but finally seeing the light makes it worth it.
I always heard people say you don't even know who you are at 20, 25, 30.. hell maybe you don't even at 40. Who knows? All I know is when I opened the door to self-love for the first time in my life I saw more of my true self than ever before. It was like opening a familiar door that was there all along. I was just always too afraid to open it.. I would love to say I have it figured out or I know everything in the room beyond that door but I'm just now entering it. The realization and hope I have for a better future is lingering steps away but some days my mind pushes me ten steps backwards. It's the quote "keep moving forward" from Walt Disney that I play in my head every morning, it's the crippling anxiety of stepping out of my comfort zone to better myself, and it's also the many forced showers when I question everything that proves to me I haven't given up yet.
The reality is I may never know everything behind the door but I'm done wasting my life away on the outside. This self discovery stuff is a bitch but I'm stubborn enough to take it. Let's embark on it together.
xx - Ally
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